Whew, what a whirl wind of feelings and emotions that have gone through my mind and heart the past few weeks! They have been very bittersweet and pondering. Not only did my grandmother come within 24 hours of dying, but Chris and I made the lifelong committment of marriage. Maw Maw was placed in hospice, but she has actually improved over the last few weeks since the wedding. She was not able to make it to the wedding, but she was there in spirit...and by a cell phone. My uncle took out his cell phone with her picture on it and sat it up on the pew so that she could see us get married. I also didn't find out until recently that she had been 
saving and collecting a set of dishes for me for when I got married. So, daddy and Chris helped move her china cabinet to our apartment and I put those dishes in it. I just can't sit her in the dining room at this computer and not think about her and all the history around that cabinet and the love she put into collecting those dishes. I cannot put into words how it makes me feel...no bad feelings, just a little bit of emptiness here and there and a little bit of joy. Again, the feelings that are so bittersweet...like a lot of things. You have to let it be...God is in control. I'm not sure what His plans are with Maw Maw, but she's still here to finish something or another.
saving and collecting a set of dishes for me for when I got married. So, daddy and Chris helped move her china cabinet to our apartment and I put those dishes in it. I just can't sit her in the dining room at this computer and not think about her and all the history around that cabinet and the love she put into collecting those dishes. I cannot put into words how it makes me feel...no bad feelings, just a little bit of emptiness here and there and a little bit of joy. Again, the feelings that are so bittersweet...like a lot of things. You have to let it be...God is in control. I'm not sure what His plans are with Maw Maw, but she's still here to finish something or another. I miss her so much...
Married life is great! We've prepared ourselves very well for this big step, and along with our pastor, who recently resigned earlier this month, we have built our relationship around the basis of God and how He intends marriage. It's tough, but well worth it. Here are some pictures...
